MYEs & Studying

Hey guys!

It's Sunday so I'm just gonna write whatever happened this week. It's not much but it's something.

I finished my exams recently ( this thursday )
It was pretty okay and I actually studied a bit, which I NEVER do. I just can't bring myself to study. I don't know..
I'm just praying I do well enough to stay in express, if not, I'll go all out for EOYs. I have too many people against me in NA and I have a lot of plans made out and I don't want to risk an extra year.

For this class I have on studying methods ( it doesn't focus on one subject, it likes gives tips on general studying, it's really fun ), we were taught how to write essays. And for practice, my teacher asked us to write about the qualities you search for in your other half. It got me thinking; what really makes us so attracted to someone?
Is it necessary for them to be handsome? Funny? Personally, they must be funny and be able to understand you. Depends on the person, I guess. I don't really have much to write about it at the moment.

I've also been blogging a lot more lately, and I find it way easier to blog now, in all my old posts, you can see how hard I try because I want to blog but I don't know how to. I also used to think about making youtube videos and shit like that, but I don't have the equipment or the courage to do so. Maybe all this is because I have a lot of thoughts recently, maybe it's a phase? I hope not, I really enjoy blogging.

Speaking about all these eye-straining activities, I have also got new spectacles. I regret it. I don't like the huge lens but they're good for my eyes since I suffer from astigmatism, I don't have myopia anymore. I used to have the combo but my eyes sort of got better. I have really bad astigmatism due to my bad habits.
My peers also don't know about astigmatism when I tell them about it so here's a link that explains it very well and compares it to myopia; http://balex.ca/blog/2010/02/nowyouknow-astigmatism/

Thank you so much for reading, you're really cool.
Bagel

LATE!

Hi there :)

I realised I never wrote a new years post for this year.
Happy new mid years!

Anyways, I decided I should blog every sunday or something with a summary at the end of the week. Occasionally, I will blog about other things on other days. This is just because I want to remember my moments. I guess.

I've been working on some playlists and stuff and I made a hundred percent chill-out music playlist. It has absolutely no significant meaning, meant to be played when you can't care less. I've been thinking about making a playlist with meaning but it's gonna take more time. Maybe the efforts will pay off.
Speaking about this, I recently met up with an old friend and we catched up on old events and such. We also compared our music tastes, I tend to listen to slower songs and she always listen to fast paced songs. And it's really funny because I'm just co-existing and she's just a ball of cute excitement.
That's pretty much it.

I don't really know how to format this and I feel really bad for writing my blog posts so sloppily ( even though there's no one reading )

Thanks for reading regardless,
Bagel.

Move On & Vent & FF

Hello guys! :)

I haven't been writing a lot lately. This is like an afterthought post.

I have been doing pretty okay in secondary school, I lost friends and have not made any new ones- but I did strengthen some of them along the way. I am not experienced with life and I am definitely not even mediocre when it comes to giving advice. I did make a few silly mistakes and if all I have done were to be divided into two stacks of papers, one indicating the good and the other bad.
I think I'll need a bandage because my bad stack has a lot papers to be dealt with.

If you want to talk about friends; I have lost too many all because of a decision. A decision I was given months to think about- yet I probably didn't choose the right one. Or maybe I didn't execute it well. I can't tell anyone I know about why I suddenly cut off so many people and stopped talking to them entirely. It wasn't exactly sudden, it was a slow process. I was considering whether I should do it or not, it wasn't out of rudeness or distaste- the friend was damaging and I couldn't bring myself to tell her so I distanced myself from her until I was released. She didn't get the clues and now her new friends keep telling me to stop being selfish.
I am being selfish, but this is because our friendship is damaging and I tried to tell her but she would try to fix something she can never fix.

I can't be greedy and I'm trying to change- slowly.
Move on. I tell myself this everyday. It's done and over. There is absolutely nothing I can do over a decision on it; dwelling on past events aren't worth it and even if you tell yourself "what if i did (a) and not (b)?"
Take life as a multiple series of exams. You've done wrong, you learn from it, become a better person. Don't try to correct something you can't.
You can change the future, however. Your faith is literally in your hands. This is what I've been telling myself this whole year. I used to drown myself in self-hate. It wasn't the best. I still hate myself, but I'm getting better. Stronger.

I would love to talk about bad choices!

It was an eventful half a year and I have no mood to blog about it at the moment, maybe I'll write a diary about it. Speaking of a diary, I'm planning into making more blog posts like a diary. So maybe I'll make a separate blog for it. And this is like my summary/reviews/rants/personal blog. I'm thinking about it. Or just transform this blog entirely. *gross! old posts!!* I'm probably gonna turn them into drafts haha.

Anyway, really appreciate you reading my useless blog- if there's any of you. How have you been feeling?

Thank you for reading!
Love,
Bages